i have been and i am trying, not to think about things and to be good to myself. i've given in to the fact that there's not much time left before the papers begins. it's definitely not good to have so many things clogged up in my mind, so much so that there's no space for important stuff.
but it's hard, almost impossible. i can't help but to let my mind wonder and drown myself in confusion and agony. why why why???? it's just too wrong...