spent the whole recess week mugging for exams which ended up as a futile attempt of trying to be hardworking. somehow my mind just blanks out when i open the paper and start writing. well, it's over and now there's an even harder challenge ahead..
well, even if age is not the best gauge of maturity, it certainly adds to it. or maybe it's time that i realise life is not just about having fun, we need a goal, an aim, a future. nothing drops down from the sky and i do think it is time for me to plan what lies ahead. one more year in s'pore may seem long but 2 years of uni life have already passed, gosh, it seemed like everything only happened yesterday. it's a mixed feeling of anticipation, excitement, yet anxiety and uncertainty of school life in bucm and generally living in bj. what's more uncertain is after graduation. i've always avoided the question of what i want to be after i graduate. my answer was always wait till i grad first, yeah it's true but i really don't know what i want, is it practice? where? is it research? or is it to further my studies (if i haven't got enough of it)?
yes officially an adult now meaning i have the full responsibility to take care of myself and be independent..
it certainly is not quite right to find myself talking to myself in the middle of the night, in the midst of studying, as in really as if there's another person in the room and just chatting, cursing and swearing, and could only vaguely remember that i was really talking all by myself but had no idea what i said the next morning. and doesn't sound quite right when i can dream about myself breaking down in the bus followed by another dream that i dreamt that i broke down in the bus, all that in 10 minutes after dinner at 8pm in the sofa. gosh.. help!
cutting cake at the rooftop..
i do love you guys..
just a random comment.. ignorance is bliss, so don't bother..
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