Tuesday, 10 June 2008

c'est la vie

at this rate, i think i can finish watching my collections of movies in lab! just some photos of my babies..

at birth

one week old.
so now i'll just waiting for them to grow up before carrying out experiments on them.
just finished watching the final episode of healing hands 3 online cos i missed it yesterday on tv, and now entertaining myself with songs. and not forgetting kept wide awake with coffee to keep myself awake during this morning's lab meeting.
yesterday was the first time opening the lab door in the early morning because we didn't know the usual monday lab meeting was postponed to today. prof was on leave and when the cat's away, the mice come out to play! watched movie and disappeared after lunch for some singing! kbox's student promo is really quite worth it, considering the free flow of soft drinks and freshly fried tapas. who cares about the oil. however, amidst all the school children on holiday, i really feel old. and i guess the staff were too busy entertaining those little kids to chase us away, if not we would have had dinner at aston! well, there's always another day! walked around the pasar malam after that before heading back to school just to sit in for gm for fun.

Sunday, 8 June 2008

last night felt as if time was tuned back to a few years ago, when we were a good young age of 18, in the good old mt sinai campus. those beautiful memories, and those silly things that we did, and not forgetting the gossips that we never knew!! yeah, those were the days!
and yesterday i dug out some of my message histories to read. oh well, people do change, and we have all grown up and matured..
and ouch, my lower body is aching so badly from my 2-hour gym workout yesterday. super unfit and flabby now!!

Saturday, 7 June 2008

i am now officially the grandma of 4 baby mice, co-grandma of 2 and step-grandma of 7. grow up babies, quick grow up so that i can proceed with my fyp!!
spent the whole morning attempting to make changes to this blog, but can't find any very nice skins to change, and still have no idea why all the words are in white, and i absolutely don' know how to enable adding of comments!! argh forget it then.
not everyday is friday but today, for those who do read this, anyone wants, or knows of anyone who want monthly disposable contacts, power -4.5 and -5.0?? yes free one whole box before they expire..
yawn, tired, let ignorance accompany me into my dreams..

Thursday, 5 June 2008

perhaps after so long we have not established the thing called trust. you never fail to amuse me, or shall i say disappoint me this time round, and welcome me to your world of stubborn-ness. pardon me if what i write is too vague, or cheem, or hard to understand, it's probably just the way things are. two extremes may just be separated by a faint line or border.
this is totally random and created out of boredom:

走在布满落叶的道路,看不清前方的方向。
回头看看踩过的过往,
是金色的回忆还是枯黄的创伤?

你说那是大树的眼泪,我说那是道路的衣裳。
还是他所谓老天的玩笑,
让这大自然也变得如此荒唐。

只有在半睡半醒中才得到这样的释放,
原有的枫叶只是隐藏
那说不出又猜不透美丽的谎。

风徐徐地吹过那流过泪的脸庞,
吹醒了宁睡的心
以及那不符合实际的希望。

天上没有天使,地上也没有帝王,
人间没有爱神,
更没有美丽的童话歌谣在歌唱。

Tuesday, 3 June 2008

请不要再让我陷入那深奥的漩涡,请让我的无知换来这短暂的幸福。

Thursday, 29 May 2008

my daily routine now can be just simplified as school, work, sleep. ok, i shouldn't be complaining because at least i'm keeping myself occupied and earning money, though it's damn damn boring. and i really shouldn't be complaining since i'm quite enjoying my life now, especially the crazy things i've done these few days. food hunts through the night, board games cos we're bored, and finally ktv and even pool for someone who has totally no ball sense!
FYP is progressing slowly, now that we're done with brewing herbs, most of my time is spent in the lab office reading and writing. and occasionally going down to visit my mice. i have 2 wildtype pups now!!
i didn't know i'm so good at summarizing, or should i say i'm just lazy to blog

Tuesday, 20 May 2008

long weekend's over and it's back to school, back to the lab tmr. although it's only been a week and although it's otot, the thought of going to sch everyday is kind of sian. yeah, that's the perfect word for it.
just found out today that round ubin is in june, which clashes with seniors camp!! seriously for the past 3 years no matter when is it, it will clash with something. a bit tempted to row but i haven't been exercising at all! and by right i can't touch water for another 2 weeks.
for general health purposes, i think i should start exercising and get A BIT of sun again. believe it or not but the last time i gymmed was before MR, the last time i rowed was more than 2 weeks ago. and on the average i run once a week now. that's all.

Tuesday, 13 May 2008

why are there still so many people in school when it's holidays now? and the morning traffic has not changed a bit. luckily i'm quite free and easy, can come and go anytime i want. brought my lappie today for research and to keep me company in lab, and here i am, waiting for time to pass.
went down to the animal house for the first time yesterday to take a look. it was quite smelly and ppl working there have to be covered from head to toe - cap, mask, gown, gloves, socks. (so environmental unfriendly right?) mice to researchers is just like any other specimen or reagents, what do you do to the excess? throw it away. what do you do to the unwanted mice? pick them up by their tail, put them in a yellow plastic bag, write and sign a termination form, into the gas chamber they go, the chamber closes, co2 is turned on, they struggle and tried to jump out for a few seconds before collapsing and lie motionless. off to the biohazard bin they go eventually..
went down again today, got a cage of mice for myself and today is day 1 of their mating. now i'm just waiting for my mutant baby mice to arrive...

Wednesday, 7 May 2008

Yesterday was my second time walking into an operating theatre. (The first time was about 8 years ago when in actual fact I limped in and out of the OT to excavate an ingrown toenail.) This time was for lasik.

Booked the appointment last week and decided to conduct the evaluation and the surgery on the same day to save trouble. As with all operations, no lotions, creams, makeups, perfumes whatsoever was allowed. pretty easy on the getting ready to get out of house part, but i felt so 'naked' walking around in town. (when was the last time you went out to town from home with nothing on your face or hair?)
Reached there pretty early for the evaluation, which lasted more than 2 hours. this is how it went briefly. First, I was asked to fill up my particulars and then waited to be called into the examination area, where a series of eye-power, eye-pressure and cornea tests were done. Eye power test was easy and quite standard. Eye-pressure test was 'shocking' in that a sudden gust of air was shot out into the eye multiple times, i couldn't help but jump at each shot, but luckily it was fast. the cornea test was quite tiresome. it's basically a test to measure the thickness of cornea and hence deduce the suitability for lasik. i don't know if it's the problem of my eyes or is it quite standard for everyone, but it was a long process of "blink, blink, blink followed by open your eyes as big as possible and don't blink for 5 counts". the optimetrist even asked me to rest my eyes before continueing. alright, maybe my eyes are really quite small. after that, some eyedrops were instilled to dilate the pupils and a video on lasik was shown. it was then followed by the last round of tests to confirm the previous results after dilation, before a counseling session was given on the procedure, risks, post-surgery care etc. Lastly, I got the see my surgeon, who recommended me to do the intralase standard, which uses laser to cut the cornea flap instead of the normal blade, because my cornea is slightly on the thin side. Of course, it's slightly more expensive but I decided to follow his recommendation since this wasn't the time to get 'suntie' and go for the cheapest possible. The whole procedure, inclusive of waiting time lasted until about 12 noon when i made my payment and went for lunch and some aimless walking for 2 hours before washing my face and heading back to the clinic for surgery.
Upon reaching the clinic again, I was given a final eye-check on my pupils before going into the resting area right outside the operation theatre. there, i was asked to sign the agreement and escorted to my own little cubicle while waiting for my turn. the nurses helped me wear the surgery gown, shoes and cap, and explained to me how to use the eyedrops after the surgery. I must say they are really friendly, polite, young and pretty! Very soon, it was my turn.
The surgeon greeted me and I was asked to lie on the bed. After that, my head was secured by 2 barriers at the side and the nurse instilled some anesthetic eyedrops. I was then pushed under the 'cornea-slicing machine' and the doctor placed a round circular plastic thing in just the right shape to cup my eyeball. It wasn't painful, but rather quite uncomfortable, as though someone is pressing against your eyeball. it momentarily blinded my vision and i heard the doc reciting some numbers and directions and i guess he's looking at the screen when the flap was created on my cornea. The same was done with the left eye.
That was stage 1. Following that, I was pushed and placed under the other machine, which does the actual lasering. The nurse pasted a huge sticker across my face, with a hole in the centre exposing only my right eye. and i felt the doctor pasting 2 more tapes on my upper and lower eyelids respectively, then using some kind of metal tool that keeps my eye opened. I was then instructed to look straight up into the red light while he carefully flipped open the flap and did the lasering. the laser process only lasted for half a minute. I could hear the "tac-tac-tac" of the machine and smell a burning rubber smell. It didn't feel as bad as the first stage, and my sense of sight wasn't removed. When that was done, the doctor put back the flap, smoothened out any possible bubbles and placed a protective contact lens over it. Then came the most painful part - the tearing off of the sticker! I think they helped me with facial hair removal too! haha
The whole process was finished within about 15 minutes, after which my vision was still blur but i managed to walk out of the OT back into my resting area. I sat there for about half an hour, closed my eyes to rest, listened to what the nurse has to say as she helped me out of my OT attire, placed eye shields over my eyes and waited for her to book my appointment for the first review the next day.
Then i was done! That's how simple it is.
I think i must have looked like an alien as i walk to the taxi stand and waited for cab. The cute and pretty nurse was nice enough to send me into the cab.
being an obedient patient, i tried to sleep right after i got back, but it was quite impossible to at 4pm when i had 10 hours of sleep the previous day, and so i took one of the three sleeping pills prescibed and had a good rest till dinner. and having nothing better to do, i went back to sleep at 10 and was wide awake before 4am! i never knew time passes so slowly when i lie on my bed doing nothing. It's definitely not insomnia, it's the symptom of having had 'too much sleep'.

Went back for my first review today and the doctor took out the protective contacts. yay, i'm done! although my eyes are still a bit red and i've to use those lubricating eyedrops every 2 hours and constantly remind myself not to touch my eyes, everything feels and looks good. can't wait to wash my hair and face tomorrow since i'm not allowed to wash them for 48 hours in case of infection from the water. and no water sports for a month, in other words, no trainings!

Yes, I know I should be busy hiding in the lab doing FYP or at least searching for a huge pile of research material to read up on, but i'm doing nothing! Let me just enjoy the last few days of my holiday...

Tuesday, 6 May 2008

yawn...
the piggie slept from 9pm to 7am last night. the piggie just woke up from afternoon nap, had dinner and thinks it should go back to sleep again. vision's still a bit blurry and eyelids feel heavy and i shouldn't even been looking at the comp screen..
shall update when i'm awake again...
goodnight

Thursday, 1 May 2008

tell me how different i am from a pig when majority of my time is spent eating and sleeping, and the cycle repeats. on a typical day i take morning and afternoon naps, and satisfied my ice-cream cravings with 3 big cones on b&j free cone day! ok, i know, at least i read newspapers, watches tv and movies, goes out to shop, and i don't roll around in mud. that's about it.
let me be the pig before i don't get a chance to. and wth the school's system is damn screwed up, now i am suppose to cut myself into 2 and do 2 fyps???
and oh yes, i never learnt my lesson. will i ever?

Saturday, 26 April 2008

finally had a break from sleeping one hour a day on the table, locking myself up in the puny study room, door closed, curtains drawn, no clock, no internet etc for 2 consecutive days. sounds like hell doesn't it? and my 'reward'? going into the freezing exam hall, finding 5 answer booklets on the table so that we can use 1 booklet for 1 question, and i'm quite sure the total amount i wrote wasn't even enough to fill up one booklet. didn't we just celebrate earth day not too long ago? obviously doctors don't really care for the environment, and not to say for the student brain. (if i had any to start with).
oh well, it still feels good to be one of the first to finish exams. and looks like my prof is quite nice (or rather slack) to give me 2 weeks of rest before going back to the labs again..
so for the past few days, i've finally paid orchard road a visit, had nothing better to do so went grocery and household shopping with mum, caught a movie and had a good laugh, started on tidying up the files in my lappie, and work so as to gain back the financial lost incurred.
meanwhile i really think i should start exercising again soon...

Sunday, 20 April 2008

yayness to wireless to keep me company and being my fastest, though not the most trustworthy dictionary!! i still don't know what network i'm connected to, it says 'default', err.. so i guess i'm not koping anybody's right?
the computer idiot here has just discovered that the screen resolution can actually be changed so that everything would look normal instead of stretched. yes, after almost 3 long years of owning this lappie, and suddenly everything looks so much sharper and more proportionate. everybody in all photos looks so much taller and thinner now.
hahaha, i'm been entertained by my stupidity again...

Friday, 18 April 2008

1 paper down and 2 more to go. quite touched that my mom even called me yesterday morning to make sure i woke up for my paper. and i just proved my inability to read the professor's mind (in spotting questions) and to read instructions. well, i did read the instruction eventually, but it was only when time was up and after i closed the answer booklet and circled the question numbers on the cover page. and so it read "answer one(1) of the three questions", and i did 2. don't ask me why. i was stunned for a few seconds, read it a few more times and took out my pencil to draw a big cross over the last question.
i am once again so amused by myself.
had lunch at the new foodcourt in school and checked out the new sakae outlet. pretty cool and unique, if only they had student price, it'll be even better. i will miss the old canteen for their cheap drinks, fruits, sandwiches, paus etc...
last night i was so determined to go running this morning, cos the only exercise i've done for the past week was walking to westmall cos i missed the shuttle bus. and guess what, there was a thunderstorm early this morning! looks like even the weather is helping me turn white and pasty. haha.
feels good to have home cooked food in my stomach now and the other reason why i'm back is because i don't even have internet connection in my room now!! looks like my parents are either forcing me to study, or forcing me to move back. just one more week, before i can spend my entire day nua-ing at home. it will be time to ask tv back into my life. haha

Tuesday, 15 April 2008

and because i'm oh-so-bored early in the morning, staring out of the window and decided to amuse myself with the morning traffic.
lta may be smart in increasing the number of ERP gantries, and happily announcing that traffic conditions have thus improved from 'less than 20km/h to 21-24km/h' (somewhere along that line as what i heard on radio last week). i really almost burst out laughing. that is snail speed can?
and where do they think all those smarter drivers went? let me show you:

that's the view out of my window at 8.10am. see that long stream of traffic on the right? is it the normal peak hour traffic or are they trying to avoid the new upp bt timah erp??

and that's the view half an hour later....
wows..
ok, time to draw the curtains and switch on the aircon before i get roasted..
can't wait for phase 1 of my uni life to be over. just another 9 more days.. and kind of looking forward to phase 2 and 3. another 2 years to go....

Monday, 14 April 2008

looks like the 'blackout' was just a powertrip. and i searched high and low for the switchbox, and guess what? i found my longlost laptop accessories, including the recovery disk! (which my mom was so sure it was nowhere to be found ever again). and it turned out that the switchbox was just outside my room, hidden in the cupboard.
finally remembered to buy ant poison to feed those little deprived ants in the house. irritating little crawling things that are attacking everything.
die ants die! go to hell and never come back!

once again, i'm laughing at myself...

Saturday, 12 April 2008

can't believe that i spent the whole morning cleaning my room, sweeping the floor, tidying up my table and bed, scrubbing the toilet bowl and basin, when i'm suppose to be studying!! and knowing that i usually do zero housework, i think i must really have woken up on the wrong side of my bed!
i can literally survive on bread alone, especially when it's the only source of readily available food at home now. and because there's no kettle, no fridge, no microwave oven, even making a cup of coffee means i have to switch on the stove and boil water the traditional way. and of course that applies for cup noodles too. so i had bread for breakfast and lunch, because it was raining and i was lazy.
now this is what i call simple life. to my utmost horror, i discovered that the lights in the kitchen, dining and living room and corridor died!!! luckily the ones in my room and toilet are still working, if not i don't even think i can find candles in the house now.
someone please teach me how to concentrate. please teach me how to be disciplined...

Thursday, 3 April 2008

horrified by the fact that
1. i spent a total of one hour in total today on just waiting for the bus.
2. my big photo was actually on my school's website a year ago and all the info was wrong and they quoted me for something which i obviously have not said! luckily nobody really bothers to surf the website and i think it can't be linked from the homepage now unless by the ever powerful google search.
3. i probably failed my patho test (though i'll never know)
4. my dearest little sis has no lessons tmr and so do i.
5. 2 weeks to exams and 1 last week of school left.

Wednesday, 2 April 2008

轻轻触摸未来遥远的风
有一天你会找回你的梦
幸福是看得透而不是
舍不得他的所有

Tuesday, 1 April 2008



This is such a common sight after one day of lessons. I think the 'no eating' sign was being torn down long ago and perhaps a bigger dustbin should be provided in case the little mountain topples..
yeah, that's our second home!