it had to come and haunt me even in my dreams, yes my greatest fear. i don't know whether to be glad or sad that i woke up in the middle of it, realising it's only a dream. i was so close to seeing myself facing the ugly truth, but even in my dreams i didn't have the courage. who are you? do you really exist in this real world? is there really someone who can see who i am inside? who can give me encouragement instead of scolding? whom i can confide in, who can show me the meaning of care and concern. it has been almost a week but the images of that dream is still vivid in my mind. why did i have to wake up so soon?
如果曾经拥有比失去痛苦，我宁愿一无所有