is that all you care about??
(if you don't know what i'm talking about, good for you. if you do know what i'm talking about, even better!)

First dragon boat training after a long long time never fail to make me ache and give me butt abrasion! I think every muscle on me is aching, especially my upper body, but it feels good, at least i know those muscles are still in existence. And i just did more dragon boating for sea ex recce, though it was a rather relaxed pace and intensity. And i finally fulfilled my to-do list of timing a 2.4km!! been wanting to do that for quite some time, but the stadium is always closed early in the mornings when i reach there. So today i decided to try my luck again at a slightly later time, and it was opened!! and so i shared the track with all the aunties walking and ran 6 boring rounds. the timing was surprisingly decent, still managed to sub 12 despite not doing speed or interval trainings and haven't ran more than 10km since stan chart. oh well, i really hope i can get my old aching body out of bed tmr morning.
sigh.. forgive me if i am in the 'leave me alone' mood, it's not that i'm sad or anything but just that there's so many things to do and so little time.. it is only when i finally sit down and reflect on what i've done that i realised i've neglected so many people who love me and are concerned about me. why can't i love myself a bit more and live up to expectations? 2 days ago my mom just told me 'we believe you're old enough to know what's good for you...' yes knowing is one thing, but doing it is another...
study la, please!!

Is it true that as we get older, the festive mood just decreases and look forward to holiday as rest days? Or is it just me? I think this chinese new year for me is just sleep sleep and sleep. I did no spring cleaning, no SHOPPING (?!?!?! yes i don't even believe this) and so on the first day of new year, I opened my wadrobe and panicked, cos I have no new clothes to wear!! no visiting yet, not much cny goodies at home for me to eat, other than a heavenly home-cooked dinner on new year's eve, there was not much new year mood at home. Times when I am not online means I'm either sleeping, out exercising, appearing offline or my dad is hogging the internet connection watching you.tube!!
Well, I did get a few angpows and I can't even be bothered opening them to see how much it contained, yes, that's how 'exciting' my cny is, at least I did get a good rest at home.. yawn..

Do i really have my emotions written on my face? or are you really so good at reading my mind? Quite busy recently, especially these two weeks, nite cyclling recce, steamboats, birthdays etc etc.. and believe it or not, I haven't done any shopping for chinese new year! and there's no need to mention spring cleaning..
And i can't stop thinking about what you told me, when ignorance is no longer bliss and only brings what nobody has imagined it could bring. Sigh, guess I'm really neglecting the people closest to me, I don't want to wait till everything's too late. enough said. trust no MAN!!