it's only one more week. i can't believe it's going to be over so fast. seems like everything had just happened yesterday.  i still remember a few years ago when i see canoes in kallang river from sheare's bridge, i would be thinking: i want to canoe too. and yes, now my dream came true. kallang is my second home. going there at least 2 times a week, i smell like kallang, i've tasted kallang, dreamt of kallang and even think like kallang. it was only last year that i first sat in a competition boat and embarrassing to say, i fell out from the other side. and now i'm counting down the number of trainings, the number of times i've to wash and carry boats, the number of times i'm going home all wet and dirty...
yet, i've this mixed feeling in me. no doubt that i'm going to miss those things that has already become my weekly routine, but on the other hand, i'm kind of looking forward to it. the days when i can plan and carry out my own gym training programme, when i can run as much and as slowly as i want to, without having the pressure to cut my previous timings, i would love to go for hours of fat-burning jogs, exploring new routes. and i no longer have to control my diet, and my mom will have no more excuse to force me to eat meat again. is it this freedom that i'm looking forward to? i don't know. all i know is that i'll definitely not stop canoeing after nationals, because it's my passion, it's my pride to be a canoeist and i know i'm definitely going to miss the time we spent in the weights room together, as a team, our team runs and all the fun we've had together.
one more week, and it's time to mark the end of our canoeing life in rjc. but it'll take a lifetime, and it's still not enough to eradicate the friendship that we've built. love you guys lots and i can't imagine my jc life without a bunch of friends like you.
aspire, endure, perservere, kill
we can achieve, if we believe, the power we hold within

another week of school has just passed, common test results were generally unsatisfactory, but how much can i expect? trained 3 days in a row, and finally ran today after 5 long days because it was raining, i was letting my poor knees rest, i was allowing my blisters to heal. yeah, all sorts of reasons. just when i was happily walking to the busstop with the fact that my knees worked perfectly well during the run, it started aching again. but it was a great improvement from last week and they feel ok now.
watched super size me with the team yesterday, we were rushing like mad after training to catch the 3.30 show. my first time being to shaw tower and the cinema wasn't as empty as what i expected. and yes, the movie, it was quite a good documentary, and i'm still sppalled by the fact that he can eat nothing but macdonalds 3 meals a day for 30 days. totally insane. not a fan of macdonalds, i was so disgusted by the way he stuffed himself with the fats and sugar, puking from over-eating and almost killed his livers. what great harm fast foods cause. really hope this movie can evoke some emotions of fast food lovers and cause them to live a more healthy lifestyle. some parts of the movie were really funny, especially when his wife described how his diet affected their sex life, how she had to go on top and it was harder for him to get it up. haha. and just as the movie was showing him munching on the burgers, carol was simultaneously having her burger king lunch. i think the worst part was when they showed a gigantic tub of sugar and fats at the end of the movie, the amount he consumed in the past month. yucks.
i'm so thankful i've not eaten any fast food this year, as long as i can remember, and i haven't had a burger for a year? i'm swearing off fast food, completely, they're nothing but fats and sugar.
and the most ironic thing is when i was flipping the papers this morning, i was an advertisement on macdonalds, promoting healthy diet. haha, what a joke.

why am i doing this? still holding on to it knowing it's not going to get me anywhere. today, i chose to escape, or to put it nicely, i chose not to waste one hour staring and laughing at the paper and writing rubbish. but what is one hour compared to hours spent getting my brain confused and trying to keep my eyes open. why should i betray my heart, sometimes i would rather let my heart overrule and give my mind a break. afterall, how can i succeed in something which i don't even enjoy. but do i have a choice now? i can't escape forever. i'm going to get myself out of this. when there's a will, there's a way. the only way i can think of now is nothing but MUG!!!

ok, shall not let my blog die. it's just another saturday, training was quite good, first time doing k2 with huilin and she's damn stable, felt like i could do anything in front, and to fy, gs and carol, have fun kicking those balls and if you injure yourself i'm not going to forgive you.
i feel damn motivated, damn psyched up now, for everything, thanks a lot huh, for your "encouragement" i'm not what you think i am and leave me alone, just like i can't be bothered with you. you're incorrigible.

common tests are over, finally. not expecting much since i didn't put in much, not that i don't want to, but there's just no time. yeah, i know this is going to be the last and the worst common test ever. i feel so free now, no school tomorrow, no school on monday, life's getting good.
watched spiderman 2 today, haven't watched a movie for quite some time and it was a great show, better than the first one, which i can't really remember the whole plot. good way to destress after common tests.
i'm so bored that i might just wake up in the middle of the night to watch euro 2004 though i'm definitely not a soccer fan