它曾带来多少惊喜和欢笑，多少感动的泪水和幸福的滋味。人们偏爱它那脆弱的肢体，淡淡的芳香及那短暂的生命。那是因为人们看到的只是它那美丽的面孔，而看不见背后被人们残酷折磨的疤痕。当光辉的时刻一过，它的遭遇，最终的下场又有谁关心呢？它流的泪，掉的瓣又有谁希罕呢？
我愿留下其中的精髓，在阳光中绽放璀璨的光辉，在黑暗中带给我坚强的依偎，因为在我心中已是永恒的美。

fears. i used to hide from them, ignore them, but speaking from experience of a bungee jump, now i've realised the best way to overcome them is to face them.
i've never failed to amuse myself at how i've changed over the years. once upon a time i was that very shy and quiet girl in class who rarely spoke a word, then i was that rebellious girl who hung out at shopping malls after school, eating fast food and bubble tea. and from an exercise freak to a total slacker. now i actually enjoy listening to newsradio on my way to work, prefers heels over flats (though slippers still win if i had a choice) and apply at least 5 different skincare products before going to sleep, oh yes, life as an adult, a vain one.

one week into stepping into the dark side, so far so good. In fact, I'm pretty much enjoying what I'm doing now, maybe only because the stress and workload have yet to set in. What's there to complain my workplace is just half an hour busride from home and 2 young and bubbly colleagues who look forward to lunch as much as I do; when I'm setting my own deadline, planning what I should do for the day, going visiting with my bosses, and reading magazines, newspapers, watching tv and going shopping is part of my job! I sure am glad I'm given so much freedom and say.
I think the amount I've learnt about the real world, about business, about putting the knowledge acquired in school in just 1 week is over-powering. Maybe that explains the headache that won't go away. But well, work is still work, I'm sure one day I'll start complaining about it.
Busy but fulfilling week, and being offered gatorade by the helpers at solomon run at mac this morning, cab driver stopping to allow me to jay-run across pie exit, the beautiful morning sun which gave me a bit of tan, and the cooling afternoon rain, and with the bouquet of roses sitting on my table, love is in the air...

well, well, so much of saying i'll never touch tcm again, here i am flipping my textbooks (they're still so new and in good shape!) and reading and searching for research papers. Scratching my head trying to recall HPLC, titration, making agar etc etc...
that's life, not that i'm complaining.

Just as how things tumble with one small push, it only takes a pair of hands to build it up again. It has only been slightly less than a month since the end of my last exams (i hope), but it seemed like a long time. Well, it was a good month, much better than cramping endless loads of tcm knowledge into my limited brains, it gave me the luxury of waking up without the help of an alarm clock, walk down the streets and malls without the guilt of not spending the time to memorize more notes. Most importantly, it gave me time to make decisions. I think the biggest decisions I've made so far were related to education, like choosing which JC and course in uni. Now, it's a new phase of life, I hope I've made wise decisions.
知足常乐, seriously, what more do I want