desperately in need of some inspiration. to update this blog and my brains..
perhaps it got fried in the huge oven i'm living in, or maybe it never existed. reaching the midpoint of 2009, and the past few days has been quite unexciting, except for the blazing hot sun and the gushes of hot air that's higher than body temperature. now i can't decide which is worse, winter or summer?
what a difference a month makes, a year...
and now it's 2 weeks to the end of the school semester..
a couple of crazy but feasible ideas just came to my mind recently.
looking forward to..
july: post-exam fun!
august: hear the merlion roar!
september: family time!!
october: maybe marathon?
see? who says i live by the day?

因为想一个人而寂寞
因为爱一个人而温柔
因为有一个梦而执着
因为等一个人而折磨
因为想一个人而解脱
因为爱一个人而宽容
因为有一个梦而放纵
因为等一个人而漂泊

曾几何时，你变得那么陌生？那深情的眼神，那温暖的怀抱，以及那内心的寄托。好的，坏的，一切都叫回忆，一切都曾换来欢笑和泪水。为何如今是那么的冷淡，却又如此心痛？
曾几何时，我也变得那么陌生？已不认得自己，控制不了自己。悲伤化成了眼泪，却又不尽微笑地嘲讽自己的愚蠢。
我是谁？

tell me how to go on,
when the more i learn about tcm, the more i think it makes no sense, totally crappy and no scientific basis! obviously after almost 4 years, i have not convinced myself...
so what do i do now?

once in a while, we do need to get away from the daily routine, away from the busy city, away from the world controlled by expectations and level of accomplishment.
10 days ago, we got on the coach, travelled about 10 hours north to the grassland where we were greeted with wine, music and dance, where the horses took us across the grassland. then the camels took us around the desert. where i realise at the end of it all, nature is still the best...
once in a while, we do need that moment to ourselves, to break free, to indulge, to make mistakes. why do i let that once in a whiles happen so frequently?