有人无法看见美景，有人无法听见声音。
有人无法唱歌，无法倾听。
有人闻不到花香，有人不能四处跑动，有人没脚穿鞋。
为什么我还要不停抱怨，不能像小鸟一样，飞入云端玩耍？

i've been blog surfing recently and just to pen down some thoughts on life...
it's strange how some people try so hard to maintain that breath of life while others try all means to take it away... yes, it's so vulnerable yet so strong. seems like some things are not within our control, if someone wants to take it away just like that, what can we do to stop? and it's ridiculous how some people tried to commit suicide for various reasons and tried all means but failed in the end. what losers these people are? why are they so unappreciative of the beauty of life?
yes, and i've just called myself a loser. honestly, i've ever thought about it, but i didn't have the courage to. because i can't bear to leave my loved ones, or rather i don't want to be remembered as the coward who does not have the courage to face reality.
i know that there are so many people out there who are so much less fortunate than i am, and if they can live on so happily, why can't i do the same? really, how do you define happiness? it's not about money, not about achievement, nor results... i think it's more of a phychological thing...
i will stop complaining about my life, because i'm lucky enough to be given this chance to live and i will treasure it and spread it around. i just did today, by donating blood.

ok, i shall be good so here it goes....

Rules:
1. Bold the following words that are true about you.
2. Green the things you wish were true.
3. Add one thing true about you.
And then tag FIVE more people.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch TV these days. i've been watching tv everyday since exams started, or rather, since i moved back home
i should spend more time exercising than being a couch potato!!!
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lens.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've been in a threesome.
I've been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm totally smart. yeah right....
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi. or rather to put it more generally, i love food
I talk really, really fast/unclear.
i wish i spoke slower
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. and i hate getting unknown calls and i can always reject calls that i don't want to answer, heh when i'm in a dao mood
I like the way I look. yup, it's in green
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.erm, i can move my ears
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have alot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
i am talking now!
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window-shopping.
I would rather shop than eat. can i have both??
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. sigh...
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before. yes quite a lot...
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn. yeah right now it's 109 cell bio
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex. sometimes
I have made a move on a friend's significant past or crush in the past.
I own the a South Park movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.Democrat.
I am punk rockish.I am preppy.
I study for tests most (ALL) of the time. haha this must be a joke
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can. haha i went home barefooted from kallang before when my slippers disappeared
I have jumped off a bridge. sigh, didn't get to try the bridge jump for x-physique
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at MacDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went to college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses!
I fall for the wrong people. ??? hahahahahaha
I adore bright colours. totally
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing. yeah when i should be studying for my paper tomorrow...
I usually like covers more than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongues in waves, much like a snakes slithers.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distraction.
I'm usually bothered by trivias.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie. how about 3 to 4 cups of coffee a day?? and my aim is to abstain from coffee after exams
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary. it's never necessary at home cos my mom will do it when she can't stand the untidyness anymore... hostel?? hehe i dare not even go back to see what's the situation like
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy. who doesn't? but the problem lies in how to be happy
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I have ridden an elephant.
I love chocolates! it's a love-hate relationship haha
I go to school NOT for the sake of lessons. sometimes, just to chill out with friends... school would be fantastic without the stress of lessons and exams
I love tomatoes
I like peanut butter on bananas.
Been told "You're on fire!"
I'm a netballer. some say i look like one, but the truth is i have no ball sense at all
I want to be everything cool!
I believe in Serendipity.
I think the word "RASPBERRY" is sexaaay! ????!!!! i think watermelon sounds better
I love to look at people's teeth. ???!!!! i used to look at teeth a lot when i was working at the dentist
I don't wanna grow up.
I can cross my eyes n stick out my tongue n still look cute.
Gaining weight is a wonderful thing. my big fat ass!!!!
I am a procrastinator.
I love listening to gossip.

Something about me: actually i don't really know myself sometimes!

wow that was a pretty long list to go through, i don't know why i did it when i'm suppose to be hugging buddha's leg now haha.

so here are the lucky five:
fengyi
rachel
meixiu
michelle li
michelle chan
and whoever who is bored


almost halfway through and i refuse to comment on the dire state of this exam. sigh....
i've been staying at home for the past 2 weeks and i must say that home is a perfect place to eat and sleep and yes, get fat..... and now my only forn of exercise now is running and the best thing is i run on the treadmill and watch tv at the same time, haha so that i won't feel so guilty for watching tv...

shall stay at home today cos i'm lazy to go out, and my mom is scared of my presence at home cos i eat everything in the kitchen, and my dad likes it when i'm home cos my mom will cook more and better dinner haha, how ironic...

i can't wait for exams to be over, and here's my to-do list after exams:
- food therapy (i think in this case my dad is more eager for my exams to end so that he can have his buffet)
- exercise therapy (to get rid of all the fats and junk in my body that is accumulated during the exam period)
- singing therapy (oh man, i'm so ktv deprived!!!!!!!)
- retail therapy (yes, shopping shopping and more shopping please!!!!)
- don't drink anymore coffee!!!!!

and here's my plans for holiday:
- get a nice, fun and slack job (like working in an ice creamery or baking cakes)
- educate my sister (to get her ready for school next year, still can't imagine her going to school, seeing her grow up make me feel that she's forever a baby)
- train, train and train to get those muscles and nice tan back
- get some reading done (this is going to be the hardest i tell ya)

it's the time of the year again and i feel like my head is exploding... maybe someone should just take a chopper and chop it off. just kidding...
time to play disappearing act again, and i've been hiding at home as much as possible. i hate this feeling. it seems like school has just started last week and my mind has not been activated yet. grrr just hang in there..
on a lighter side, there's 2 new additions to my house - 2 hamsters which are keeping my sister busy. her record of pets was one week (2 cute rabbits died in her hands) and i certainly pray for the 2 little hamsters.
3 days ago while working at the ciee work and travel usa, i was using my tongue to clean my mouth after eating an apple and i felt something like apple skin stucked at the end of the bottom row of teeth which can't come out, only to realise it was my wisdom tooth taking a peek. haha i'm getting wiser.
i feel feverish and i think i'll take a plunge into the freezing pool later...
man, i hate myself, hate myself, hate myself..........

I'm super irritated with the security guard at my condo. Today is the third time he's stopping me from walking in and i had to convince him that I stay here.
I'm so sick and tired of this boring school life. Give me a break!!!!!